Feeling Blue?

Today is probably going to be a good day, after a night of drinking, eating good food and falling down a flight of stairs, the sun is shining and the kids are happy. It's been hard lately, rain has doused the New England country side for 3 of the 4 summer months, mildew is in the basements, turning into living creatures, tomatoes rotting in the garden of weeds and hay is left for the deer to eat. After a very depressing summer I can already see the leaves turning their shades of colors and am not prepared for what seems to be fall. I can see a clearing in the clouds and watch my children ages 4y and 20 months fascinate themselves with the slugs that have overrun the lawn/garden/driveway. It has come to my attention, that I need a break, a break from the 4 jobs I fill my crazy life with, a break from the poisons of alcohol, and a break from the facade I live in. I am grateful for those who support me, love me and most importantly have patience with me. It is going to be a good day.